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[oliswamp]

So life kicked me in the curb it seems.

I'm in the mental hospital and slowly reworking my life ethics.

The only constant in my life is writing, to be honest. I have written twice the amount I anticipated in th year, and then some. I'm slowly closing in on tripling my getyourwordsout pledge, and I don't plan on stopping writing even after I do that.

I don't think I will really rest until I see that 300% on the progress spreadsheet, and according to my pace tracker it's going to happen soon, probably within the next month or two. To put that 300% in numbers, I mean 225k words written. I don't want to challenge myself to 250k because that's like an additional month's worth of writing for me and I might not pass the threshold then.

Comments

[vriddy]

Wishing you well. Glad the writing is going well <3

[oliswamp]

Thank you! <3

[mythicmistress]

Good to see that the writing is going well. ...drat. I don't know what else to say that isn't totally redundant. Anyway... Best of luck going forward.

[oliswamp]

Thank you! I try to have a positive outlook for the future, I hit rock-bottom, and I have no shovel to keep digging, so going up it is! <3

[sennashi_dorei]

Ýou're the first person on dreamwidth I've seen other than myself that is getting locked up. Feel free to share what's going on.. I'm an open heart surgery recipient that is being told my physical problems are mental, and I'm pretty upset about it. I suffer from major episodes of pain, and probably blood pressure issues whatever else. I kinda think these behavioral health units are just a little out of control right now, and I'm wishing for more consensual care.

Holy fuck are you alright?

[oliswamp]

Hi. I am: worried about you.
But first, to clarify a few things: I was not getting locked up, I came to the hospital by my own will. Stayed there against my will for a bit, but I had the power to leave at any moment by the magical words of "wypis na żądanie" which translates to 'leave by own request', because I'm not declared legally incapacitated.
Two, what the fuck? I'm wishing you accurate and consensual medical help, that will actually help you. Your story is wild and I am so glad my physical health worries have never been met with such actions. (I have heart problems as well)
If there is anything I can do to help you, contact me. Otherwise, do tell me if you'll want to vent or need a shoulder to cry on. The situation you're in sucks majorly, but you know that.

Re: Holy fuck are you alright?

[sennashi_dorei]

When you get heart surgery, you don't know what you're signing up for. In order to get it in the first place, you already know that things are really really bad, and you know, even if there's better, there's probably going to be limits around it. I sort of anticipated this thing would happen, and I do have some anger problems, but I'm still convinced that most of my problems are related to bad physical health and oppression. I literally do live in a hospital sometimes because of these behavioral health wards, and even with that happening, I still message friends regularly: "I should be living in a hospital." When I'm not in the hospital: because the pain can seriously be that bad. I go to them regularly, and there's miscommunication to way too high of levels. I don't know how to make consensual agreements for proper care, and I often feel like I'm being treated like either a child or an animal.

Thanks for the contact.